Текст песни тема креста - что исус имел в виду

I lived and did not wonder why why and who
I asked my mother the name of the planet we live on
earth - my mother answered, such a banal word
I'm nervous, I ask again, was it really impossible to come up with something new for the planet
we sit on the bus, go to church, today they will baptize me
the priest will cut my hair, it will pour water on me
came home, on the table lies the terrible binding of the law of God
such a dirty book that you need to wash your hands after, not before, otherwise the skin will deteriorate
They hung a cross around their neck and told them not to take them off ever
talked about some other prayers did not understand anything
I look at a crucified man
save and save engraved on the back
everything breathes unpleasant carrion
or vice versa, something too pretentious
grandfather died, probably did not wear a cross, I thought
or just memory failed prayer did not remember difficult
next memory a year has passed
I'm sitting at my grandmother's mom screaming out of context I understand that God
it's badly doused with lies I stand I take off the cross I put it in my pocket
the next morning in kindergarten in hysterics I tell inmates about deception
a little later, it turned out that God is good, this grandmother joined the sectarians
but just in case, I decide not to believe in anyone yet, so as not to suddenly upset my mother
in the second grade I catch the first flashes of fear
I pray for the picture with the virgin Mary
feel cleansed, but not for long
another grandfather decides to die
in the fifth grade, she deceived her mother, and she somehow found out
the great-grandmother leaving the guests at the door said softly:
"Because you don't wear a cross, you have demons living inside.
look at my sectarian daughter, don't become an enemy of the family! "
in frustrated feelings I went to look for him here he is small
save and save I put it on my neck and in a year I will drown it in the sink
(pause)
in 11th grade I am going crazy with fear of death
I ask my mother to help me - she forbids me to think about it
I look at my classmates - I see everyone in the coffin
I don't understand the world order, why now only exams are of paramount importance
why my body will decompose as a hard cold load in the ground
how to lie in a coffin I stopped being able to sleep on my back
i read the bible jesus suffers love and do says good
according to his behest, I breathe and try to get rid of fear, everything should be simple, easy
I go to church, I faint from the smell of incense, there is no salvation, old women with tumors are suffering on their knees, I run to the zoo, rather touch a living thing, I hit myself in the face in the patient’s place, I forgot to say a stand with books accidentally blew my hip, grandmother in a scarf with candles called me the devil, I look into the sky, the earth is cramped, I call an ambulance, they are helpless, I am in a hurry to call my mother, time zones, she is in another city, mother, why did you give birth to me, contemplate the beautiful nature filled with evil,
two sleeping pills under the tongue, in the morning I go to the doctor, the doctor advises to have sex more often, probably this is what Jesus meant.