Текст песни Дж.Кришнамурти - Записные книжки - 2

& quot; « Notebooks » texts contain daily entries Jiddu Krishnamurti from 18 June 1961 to 23 January 1962 This recording observations of nature , observing states of consciousness. This deep penetration into the inner world of man : the strength of their light makes clear the destructive power of psychological structures , both for the individual and for all that exists on earth, animate and inanimate . Many places these records may show how reality meets brain, interference-free egocentric conditioning.
In June 1961, Krishnamurti started keeping a daily record of their feelings and states of consciousness. Except for about two weeks, he continued to lead this record for seven months . He wrote clearly , in pencil, almost without corrections . The first seventy-seven pages of the manuscript contained in a small notebook , and continue to the end (up to c. 323 manuscripts ) used book larger loose-leaf . Recording starts suddenly and ends abruptly . Krishnamurti himself could not say what prompted him to start it. He never led such records , either before or after that .... & quot;

& quot; June 29
Pressure and tension with deep pain , as if deep inside the operation goes . This does not happen on their own, no matter how subtle it may be. At some time consciously entered into it deeply. Trying to encourage it , try to use different external conditions - privacy and so on. In this case, nothing happens. All of this - not something new .
Love - not affection. It does not generate grief. In love there is no hope or despair . Love can not be made respectable , part of the social structure or social programs . When it is not, start all unhappiness.
Possess and belong considered a form of love. This thirst to possess, a person or a piece of property, not just determined by the Company or the circumstances , but stems from a much deeper source. It comes from the depths of loneliness. And everyone is trying different ways to fill this loneliness ,
drink, organized religion , faith , some activities and other things. All of this - a way of escaping , but it's still here.
Entrust ourselves to some organization , to surrender to some belief or activity means to belong to them - it is a negative possession ; and positive - have yourself. Negative and positive possession - is doing good , changing the world and the so-called love . Control another , to shape another in the name of love is the need to have , need to find a different defense , security, support , consolation . Oblivion itself achieved through another , through some kind of activity , leads to affection. From this attachment come grief , despair, and hence the reaction - to step back . From this contradiction of attachment and detachment arises conflict and frustration .
There is no way to escape from loneliness : loneliness - a fact and escape from facts breeds confusion and sorrow.
But do not have anything - unusual condition , do not even have an idea , let alone a person or a thing. When an idea , the idea takes root , it has become a possession, and then begins a war of liberation. And this freedom - not freedom ; it is a reaction . Reactions take root and our life - the soil in which roots have grown . Cut off all the roots , one after the other - is a psychological absurdity. That's impossible. Only need to see this fact , loneliness, and then everything else disappears.
June 30
Yesterday in the afternoon, it was bad, very bad, almost unbearable ; It lasted for several hours.
Taking a walk , surrounded by these purple bare rocky mountains , suddenly felt privacy . Complete privacy . Everywhere was privacy ;
it was a huge , immeasurable wealth ; it was a beauty , inaccessible thoughts and feelings. It has not been fixed , she was living , moving , filling every corner and area. High Tor shining in the setting sun , and this very sve