Текст песни DEADKID - Небеса подождут

The past throws a stone at my throat with its feet, hitting my chest.
Those we will never become, those we killed ourselves.
Envy reveals the traumas that breed pity.
But I promised I'd stay, look how I try.
To cope with what this crazy path brings.
Threats and splinters of pens that I remember by heart.
Unanswered questions, as a teenager, I realized how easy it is to be a scumbag, but thrown into space.
I dreamed up dreams while everyone around me was dying from a drug addiction.
Grew up like them, but at the same time, I was always afraid of becoming an adult.
I was drawn to something more than just being and seeming.
And those around me can be counted on one hand.
The basis was groups of years chewed up.
That were preserved on cassettes but are no longer alive.
I slept and saw myself committing my total arson on stage.
And life kicked me to extremes wherever I went.
Changing schools like gloves, moving, problems.
The street teaches you not to run and to strike first and last.
Not knowing your limits. I woke up in the hospital, drunk.
Police department records, and that's how principles are born.
I'm only guilty before my mother for those tears and shame.
She forgave and forgot, but I couldn't let go.
Then everything was the same as everyone else's: everyday life and working myself to the bone.
I became a downtrodden philistine, to the point of vomiting.
My dream faded into the background, because I needed something to eat.
These debts once again threw me under pressure.
The already gray everyday life after the quarrels and scandals.
She's always by my side, but I still couldn't get enough.
And I bragged about everything I could, just to get closer to my goal.
Look, they started like you, but they've already given their concert.
Tell me how you're worse than them, a guy who needs to take and then crush.
I got lost in these sneakers and lost track of myself.
She cried at night, I left her alone.
It seemed like I was drowning, but I was stupidly walking along the bottom for a long time.
As if minutes melt away, years into In the web of those roads
Again, I've gotten myself into a place I couldn't escape from
Something's wrong around me, as if the world has become uninteresting
I wrote most of my songs in dives
And even if I kill myself, I can't understand what was going on in my head
I gave up and again fled into a useless everyday
I was going crazy, but I was leading all those I cared about
And I carried the mistakes I'd once made on my shoulders
I was dying and imagining that it would be easier for me to live this way
Amid countless losses and unreached peaks
Before my eyes, like yesterday, the bustle of my bracelets
Interrogations again, what's going on here, silence in the courtroom
And my mother holds me tight, so she doesn't want to let go
I promise I'll come back, and I have to keep it
But I can't pick up the pieces of the heart I broke
They're stuck in my memory, I don't have the strength to take them out
And I tried not to break all these years, a mental battle
The struggle to remain forever alone By myself
Then I thought I'd end up like everyone else, turn off the lights.
But there's nothing sadder than these walls we've created within ourselves.
Many young years will pass, and they'll be erased as if in a dream.
After all, only the past is that world where our weaknesses are strongest.
I once had a friend like everyone else, and let's say I don't believe it anymore.
People, just like before, are just trash outside my door.
We thought we were chosen by someone, closer than a brother.
But all of this, however, wasn't true, so it must be so.
You know, karma will touch anyone here, no matter who you are.
If you betray, be prepared to be betrayed yourself.
Time doesn't heal, time suffers, it waits, and will make you understand.
What can't be fixed, you just have to accept.
Just like I once accepted hopelessness in myself.
And despite all the crap, I go against fate.
My middle finger in her face, my voice is still here.
Now I'll fuck this life, and heaven can wait! Heaven will wait, I hold on, and my path through the thorns is a route.
Through pain, through white noise, through fog, I breathe here, I endured, but now heaven will wait!
Heaven will wait, I will light the light with a spark that once went out.
Through the hum and taboo, the wounds will heal again, because I'm here, so believe heaven will wait!
Heaven will wait, I hold on, and my path through the thorns is a route.
Through pain, through white noise, through fog, I breathe here, I endured, but now heaven will wait!
Heaven will wait, I will light the light with a spark that once went out.
Through the hum and taboo, the wounds will heal again, because I'm here, so believe heaven will wait!