Текст песни Гарри Топор - Собеседник

Son, why are you so fast? Why are there terrible thoughts in your head?
I gave you life. Why were you standing on the ledge, ready to kill yourself on the ground?
For a long time I endured all the curses from your lips addressed to the sky -
But I can’t let you die feeling like I betrayed you.

You are a fiction, not God. I always prayed for you, but you don’t give a fuck.
I was sick for a long time, until I was 12 years old, and lived in filthy basements; I couldn’t feel my legs from hunger.
I was alone on the planet, my world was a testing ground. Death was not far from me.
I stole from pockets on trams so that at least I had enough for milk.

Do you remember that New Year when I was late to board the fucking plane -
The wife and lover were frolicking at home; This story is exactly like a joke.
Where were you when both sons chose heroin instead of studying?
Do you remember how, returning from the factory, I saw their faces and realized that they were not there?

You are our heavenly commander! You are the ruler, the guide.
But I think that in life, you are just a petty, pathetic old man.
Why are you silent? You have nothing to say, huh? Why did you swallow your tongue?
I dreamed of seeing you for half my life only to tear you to pieces.

Where have you been? Your life is a myth. It's like the secret of building ancient pyramids.
The gods have been spitting down on people since they climbed Olympus.
Where have you been? Let's talk about you now, my discreet counterpart.
Tell me, why did you allow crosses to be placed on children’s graves?

They say you’re gone, or you’ve given up on us, like you don’t give a fuck about all of us.
If there is dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you granted death.
I'm alone here, show me the path that I could find.
We are left alone with you, my dear God.

They say you’re gone, or you’ve given up on us, like you don’t give a fuck about all of us.
If there is dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you granted death.
I'm alone here, show me the path that I could find.
We are left alone with you, my dear God.

This world is evil and poisonous. You wouldn't be able to take a single step on the ground,
If I hadn't been there for you from the very beginning.
My sinful son, judge for yourself:

Your neck was entwined with the umbilical cord, it was impossible to give birth.
I saw your mother suffer - and I saved you both,
To give you a chance to give life.

Where have I been? I gave you the opportunity to find a piece of bread and milk for lunch.
I made you miss the plane that exploded in the sky at night on New Year's Day.
The male spouse had a round dance. I just showed you the face of this creature.
Remember what you said about me that night: that I am a pitiful old man.

I showed the children the path, but you understand, you, my son, can’t walk it for them.
Seeing their father constantly beating their mother, they chose this path themselves.
Where have you been? You are a father, and your son killed himself with terrible poison in front of you,
In the room next to him is a chipped younger brother, quietly hanging from a belt.

Son, why are you so fast? Why are there terrible thoughts in your head?
I gave you life. Why were you standing on the ledge, ready to kill yourself on the ground?
The lead-colored clouds in the sky were gathering into a large dome,
Blaming his interlocutor, this man shouted into an empty corner.

They say you’re gone, or you’ve given up on us, like you don’t give a fuck about all of us.
If there is dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you granted death.
I'm alone here, show me the path that I could find.
We are left alone with you, my dear God.

They say you’re gone, or you’ve given up on us, like you don’t give a fuck about all of us.
If there is dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you granted death.
I'm alone here, show me the path that I could find.
We are left alone with you, my dear God.